Series of Diary Entry

Entry 1
I feel the pressure coming down like bricks....bricks not being placed but thrown onto my back. I know its important to memorize the drink menu but it's not everything...remember Amanda you have a test. Yes, yes of course, don't explain yourself school comes first, then your stupid job. I mean what 18 year old actually knows what is in a Lond island ice tea...I just found out that isnt not ice tea. It seems like paat 9 all people want to do is drink. I hate closing here at Pete's you have to stay here till 2:30a.m. and there are people who stay here that long. It seems like forever...."Alcohol abuse" maybe I’m not an expert on it but I have know a few drunks that come into my work. I interviewed someone who is a drunk...I don't think there really is a time when I was there that he wasn’t…Sad I know. The audience for the book i read about alcohol abuse is to understand why people feel the need to spend hours in a bar waisting away drinking, people wanting to be drunks (ha-ha) or people using it for research like me. The purpose for this is basically, what are the results in drinking long-term how they effect others and why people become this. I find it so fascinating...the guy who wrote this must have been a recovering because no one can tell the true story unless they live it, ya know what I mean. I much rather spend my time studying to become a pilot, something that doesnt put me down.

Entry 2
I finally soloed I think this is one of the happiest days of my life, I was so scared, I didnt know what I was gonna do when I was up there by myself because I was shaking and so nervous. I was so glad when I was finally on the ground and my flight instructor was waiting for me at the hanger, he filmed the entire thing so that I could show my family what I did. I remember though in the back of my mind that I'm gonna have to go to work soon... I hate work...but I won't let this bring me down. I'll just continue my research and observations for my essay. I have been spending a lot of time on it so I hope everyone enjoys it. I still can't believe I flew all by myself!
(Later that Night.)
I tried... I tried so hard not to let anyone get to my or anything...this horrible place ruined one of the happiest times of my life, I let them I tried not to but I couldnt stop them. They have no heart for people who have a furute. I remember reading the book Talking texts : how speech and writing interact in school
learning . I read that people talk differently in certain cituations like when your at dinner vs. work. I know you wouldnt be talking about what movie you want to see in the middle of a buisness meeting. I know the way people act when they drink and treat me isnt the way they would at home or work. This doesnt make up for how they act but is sure explains a lot.

Entry 3
I don't want to work here anymore. I don't feel the need to be here at all. I have put my application in Blockbuster and recieved a call for an interview. If I get the job I'm leaving at once. I think Ill like it there, I mean why shouldnt I, I love movies and I'v seen a bunch of them. I think it was the last staw when I asked one of my customers, a man what he wanted to drink and he grinned and replied "brest milk" followed by "and can I get it myself?" I could have shot him...but them I would have gotten fired...almost worth it though, well I told the manager about it and he ran up to the guy told him off and was about to ask him to leave when the owner walts up told the manager to leave and bought the man a round of beers with his buddies. It mad me sick. So, so sick. I knew then that I could no longer be close to a place like this ever again. The owner even offered me a job at his other resturant, thinking that I would like it because it's smaller and more fancy...well I told him to shove it. If Blockbuster does not hire me I will Keep lookingand not lose faith, I know that I can get a better job. I won't make nearly as much but atleast I'll have my pride, I will just have to save more and spend less, I can do that I know I can. I can be every responsible when I want to.